I finally finished filling out the 100 question interview I got from Nik. So here it is, in all of it's shiny glory. Over 9k words of crap about Zaiden.

( Zaiden lives! )

Okay, real life and RP have met! I have a little bit to say about both sides of things. But first! Otakon in just a few days! Kurt and I are driving up Thursday night to get our badges. We will then be crashing at my mother's house and heading up again Friday morning for the actual con. I have to remember to bring all of my chargers, because on two separate occasions at cons I forgot one, and was quite pissed off. We have a hotel for Friday and Saturday nights, but check-in isn't until three, and check out is noon on Sunday. We'll probably park in the parking lot of the hotel anyway, and just unload our stuff from the car later in the day. Maybe after lunch, if we have a late lunch. I hear we're only about three blocks from the convention center, so it should be good. I want to write a massive entry about the con once it's done, but the chances of that happening are actually slim to none. I tend to get too bogged down in the details after cons and just don't update about them.

Then there's other real life stuff.

I've been talking to Blake's friends ever since I got skype. This is a group of fourteen year old girls. I have fourteen year old RP friends (at least one of which used to write porn with me) so I don't think this to be too odd. I used to just see these girls once a month when I went to the Frederick anime club. So yeah, I figured there was no harm in kind of becoming better friends. But my father thinks that it's weird I'm talking to them, and gave me the impression that he thinks I might do something illegal. I don't know all of the laws or whatever, but when I was fourteen I had older friends like Rae and Karasu and Aphrael and Lavie. I was mature enough that they were mature with me, and nothing bad ever happened. I'm not going to have SEX with any of these girls, or do anything romantic at all. I think things are iffy with the whole talking about porn or RPing porn, but I think that's less hardcore than the whole statutory rape thing.

Which brings me to the RP part.

I agreed to run an RP with Cassie, one of the girls. Becky was drawn in, and then Maggie, and then my brother Blake himself. We're going to run it on LJ and we've all made journals for our characters. Mine is unluckycharisma and I've posted some interesting stuff in his userlookup bio. We're still working out who our characters are and exactly what we're doing with the plot (which Cassie wrote up and had originally planned to write as a story), but it looks like it's actually going to happen. I'm even filling out Nik's (a person I'm friends with on the neopets writing boards) 100 question character interview. I'm on the last section, with 16 more questions to answer. I'm very invested in this character now.

In other RP news, Rayne has been MIA for like two weeks now. I'm a little bit worried and I miss RPing with her. I call her but she doesn't pick up. I hope nothing is wrong. :/

And I've been RPing on furc. I'm getting much more play with my new female character than I used to with my male characters. It might be the area I'm in, though; I've been lurking in the rather popular "Yiffy High School." Dani is surprised by my writing girl!sex, and wants to read some of the logs. I haven't felt like playing the past couple days, though, and I feel bad for not being around.

And that's all for now. Not much else happening until Otakon. Later!

Okay, so I could talk about all the exciting stuff I did this weekend, but instead I'm sharing a dream I had, with you guys. It was actually more of a nightmare, and I woke up from it at about five in the morning. I jotted this down in word:

"Recurring nightmare where I'm in school, probably Elementary but I'm still my real age. Usually I'm good for class but every so often we go over a project that I blacked out doing. It always turns out that I did something really sick and twisted for the project, but I can't remember what I did and the teacher will never tell me. The teacher kind of turns the kids against me and I run away out of the school building. I seem to have some sort of abilities to evade the people chasing me. Somehow, I get onto a bus without them finding me. I think the bus driver is onto me but he's on my side. We're driving away and I can see the people chasing me from outside the windows. While dreaming I knew something was wrong with what was going on but didn't realize it was a dream. Now that I'm awake, I still feel terrified but I can't figure out exactly what was so scary."

I should point out that only after waking up did I realize that I had similar dreams, with different encounters with the teacher, before. I never really saw what I did wrong, but my brain is making a connection between what I did in the dream and Ed and Al from Fullmetal Alchemist performing human alchemy to bring back their mother, only even worse. Just for you FMA fans in my flist. So yeah, WTF subconscious? How come I only remember the nightmares that make me not want to go back to sleep?

Yeah, I know I haven't been keeping up with my journal. I read my flist but I don't post. I was going to make a massive post about King's Dominion, but that never happened. So instead? A meme! About RP no less.

Your result for Roleplayer Test!...

The Soap Opera Star

Plotful, Character-Oriented, Sexual

Take Roleplayer Test! at HelloQuizzy

I was skeptical about the test as I was answering the questions, because I was somewhat torn on a lot of my answers. Nevertheless, this actually sounds pretty accurate for my RP style. And it makes me want to go off and RP. I think I'll do that. xD

Let's see what has happened these past few days.

Friday I headed over to hang out with my cousin Steve. He picked me up around five thirty and we headed to Nichi Bei Kai for sushi. It is an awesome, awesome sushi restaurant, and if you're in the area you should look it up. My cousin used to be really good friends with the management, but it's changed in the past six months. The chefs are the same, though, so the food is still excellent. We then went back to his apartment and hung out. I was there all weekend, until about nine pm Sunday night. And we spent most of the time watching Star Trek. I have now seen the first six movies and the first six episodes of Next Gen. He didn't actually have the original series on hand, but I'll watch it one of these days. He also loaned me his DVDs of seasons one and two of Next Gen and put the other five seasons on my harddrive, so I will apparently be watching lots of Star Trek this summer. I don't think I'm going to turn into a real Trekkie, but I am kind of enjoying the series.

Monday I had to get my blood drawn. About two thirds of the way there, I decided I should have brought my swimsuit so I could swim afterwards, but was too lazy to go back for it. After the blood draw itself, I really wanted to swim, but by the time I got home I was too tired to hike back out to the pool. Not much else of interest happened, although I started RPing again! Rayne and I wrote about 7k words between us and were just getting to the interesting part when we finally went to bed. (it was four am. xD)

Tuesday is today. I hung out with Ben. We were going to go to the pool, but he was still sunburnt from Thursday, so we didn't. We still had a good time though. I'm at mom's house now. She picked me up around four thirty, we got Chinese take-out for everyone, and came back to the house in Frederick. We're going to King's Dominion tomorrow! Hopefully we'll all get our asses out of bed on time. It'll be fun!

And that's all for now. I'm on the mac and it kind of disagrees with me.

Not much happening in real life land. I still have all of those applications to fill out and two numbers to call about jobs but I keep forgetting and putting it off. x.x I haven't been feeling that well physically. I'm not sick or anything, I'm just really fucking tired all the time. You think I would be used to this, but it just makes me feel fucking useless because I'll do stuff like try and read and end up passing out where I sit. It also makes me worried about the whole trying to find a job process, because if I finally landed something, it would suck to be fired because I fell asleep in the middle of doing my job. I'm also inexperienced as hell, so yeah.

I did manage to go to the pool today. Blake and I were being lazy, and didn't bother hiking up. We opted to wait for dad to come home; he didn't get here until almost six because he left late. Turns out it was just as well we didn't walk to the pool; we forgot that the nearest pool is closed on Wednesdays. We only remembered this after dad drove us up to said pool. So we went to the second closest pool. Where there was a swim meet going on. Finally we struck gold on our third attempt and swam for about an hour and a half before dad made us leave. It was actually pretty fun. Ben is coming over tomorrow, and I'm taking him to the pool. Being with him and Blake is bound to be an adventure. I warned him about how retarded Blake and I are, but we'll see.

In internet news, I actually went on this Harry Potter friending meme. My real life friends frequently read my mind and exclaim with "that reminds me of a Harry Potter fanfic!" when I try and talk. So, two new buddies? (And apparently I still need to figure out for sure what you'd like to be called instead of just your usernames, which are hantise00 and persephoneia) Welcome to the flist. My point being, I'm a total Harry Potter fangirl, but I've been kind of "keeping it to myself" in my journal because everyone is sick of my shit. xD I read a lot of fanfic though, so I'd love to babble at you guys about the latest fic I read or the trailer for HBP. (I'm also stalking draykonis and byaghro in addition to dysonrules from Harry Potter fandom.)

In writing news, still no progress. I did start getting back into RPing. I started up the shapeshifter dragon RP with Rayne again, and Rayne got me back on furcadia with a FEMALE CHARACTER. And I was actually approached by one person without having to do the approaching! We haven't RPed yet though. He wants me to come up with a scene, and all I can think of is a sort of teacher student type dealie because my character is a geeky overachieving college student and his is a science nerd and we could think of some arrangement. But I got the impression he'd like to do something ~creative~ and I can't think of anything good. This will doubtlessly devolve into romance (dunno about sex, he's only ever had a handjob from a woman), so! Suggestions? I don't care if it's something REALLY WACKY, just if you have any plots or set ups, lay them on me.

And that's about it. Gonna try and keep the journal updated a little bit more frequently. We'll see how that goes.

Yeeeeauh, I'm still alive. Barely? I've been keeping myself busy but haven't really felt like talking about it. You guys are totally out of the loop. Sorry!

On the real life front, still no job, but I have a buttload of application forms to fill out and turn back in to their respective stores. I'm kind of pessimistic because I have no practical work experience, but we'll see what happens.

On the writing front, I fail royally. I just haven't felt like it. I should be keeping up with 52 in a Year -- I'm already four or five stories behind. I do have ideas but I haven't had the drive to work on it. Yesterday I got the urge to work on one of my longer PWP type ideas but I wanted to reread the beginning before I continued and got distracted reading fanfic instead. I might work on my Nero drabbles; those are kind of more "for fun" than some of the other ideas rolling around inside my head so my perfectionist streak isn't engaged. One of my problems is fanfic. Some of the fic I read is just a level above anything I write. Sometimes it inspires me to write and I try harder. Sometimes I get intimidated and just want to crawl in a hole and do nothing. I'm mostly getting the intimidated part lately, which is not helping.

Anyone feel like inspiring me? :D I kind of feel like RPing but I don't want to commit. I actually got the urge to write something where my character Nero kind of forces my character Cay and his sort of lover, Kris' character Taki into doing delicious things with him, but Taki is Kris' character and I'm not quite comfortable writing fanfic. I also doubt she'd want to RP this with me, because it's been so long since we've written Taki or Cay. Ah, well, a girl can hope.

Anyway, maybe I'll try and keep this updated better? @.@ I'm sorry for failing.

Yeah, still not ready to start actually keeping the journal again. Not even for writing purposes, because I only seem to want to write when I should be going to bed. I guess I'm doing the more responsible thing, because I've been going to bed instead of writing. I think my laptop and I need a change of scenery. I may go to Deek's tomorrow, if he's free. I was going to go today/Wednesday, but he had a last minute job interview. Did I mention he lost his job? No, no I didn't. I'm keeping you guys very out of the loop. I've also kept you out of the loop on Ben. Katie and Mike and Lydia and probably some of my other real life friends know about him, but not you poor souls only getting your information through LJ. He seems to be the latest addition to my harem. We're not DATING, but I really like him, and I won't be getting into that quandary right now. Maybe in a later post one of these days. I also have news about Lydia, but we're waiting to see what she wants me to share. xD

But that brings us to the "point" of the entry, which is kind of a non-point. I present to you: A meme!

The problem with LiveJournal is that we think we're close, but really, we know nothing about each other.

So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me, something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about, or something you've always been curious about but have never asked, or something completely silly that you'd like me to answer for kicks. No limits on the range of questions, either: ask me anything you want to know about, whether it's a fannish opinion or a question about a fic of mine or trivia about my real life or my thoughts on events in the offline world.

Ask away!

I hope at least one person asks me a question. I don't get a lot of comments, and for the most part it doesn't bother me. But sometimes I really need feedback and get less than I would like. This isn't writing, just a dumb meme, but it would be cool if someone was interested.

So I haven't really been keeping this journal updated (there's a lot you guys are missing out on) but instead, a meme! I totally ripped this off of Case (technophile).

( Belated LJ cut because I realized the picture was FUCKING HUGE. )

I mostly agree, except for the beta part. I dunno. I guess I can be socially beta but sexually alpha or whatever.

Okay, so apparently I did some writing tonight. 3,842 words worth of writing, that is. The problem is, it isn't on my mayno novel, and it isn't on any previously existing project. It's also highly embarrassing, so I'm not going to be sharing it here any time soon. If I finish it, maybe then I'll show it to you guys. It's also het. Part of the reason it's embarrassing, I guess. I suck at writing het. But we'll see. At least I'm writing, right? :D